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Country: Asia
Interests: All kinds of outdoor non-contact sports. Mostly tennis, golf, swimming, squash, skiing, camping... pretty much everything else.Travelling - I've been to a fair part of the globe.Reading novels, self-help, and psychology books. Writing poetry, short stories, and insights.
Expertise: Thinking... Wayyyy tooooo damn much. (Huh, that doesn't count?!)Okay, I'm good at driving ^^
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(Journal entry: June 8, 2009) I realized I haven't updated in awhile, not because of a lack of content, but more so to do with motivation. And now, I'll present a little story I wrote up awhile ago. Lost in the Forest When you get lost in a maze, you can simply get out by following the right wall. When you arrive at crossroads, you take one of the roads and see if that takes you where you wanted to go. If not, you should be able to make it around most of the time (assuming you realized you were going down the wrong path), and start anew on another. When you are wandering through the forest, it's an entirely different story. The journey of life is similar to one traveling through the thickest of forests. With tall, dense trees blocking out all the celestial bodies to provide you with a hint to your direction, one cannot help but feel lost and disoriented. Perhaps this is why people need the encouragement and security of another, although the others may just be as misguided as you may be. People are happy when they receive praise of acknowledgement for their work, as if there is a sign in the forest that said "you are on the right track!" Likewise, if an environment is positive, one can learn new materials with more ease and comfort. For a piece of the puzzle that didn't fit, I knew all too well that there would be no easy signs in the forest for me. All that awaited was endless rows of trees stretching out endlessly in all directions. And despite my efforts, I have been unable to locate the sun, moon, or markers of any sort. Such is the majority of my life, where I have been wandering without a destination for years. Sometimes I would end up where I stared. Sometimes, I would get to where I wanted to go by coincidence. If there was anything I learned during my trip through the forest, it is time for me to start hacking down trees and blazing my own trail. For too long I have wandered helplessly as a puppet in a theater show. It is time to break free of my strings and set foot upon my own stage. Back to the present - I've been taking some Dreamweaver, Autocad courses, and maybe some other various ones soon to come. I think it's important that I work towards something a step at a time - no matter how small it is in the beginning, it will add up over time. And so, I started going down another thorny path... Oh yeah, I am planning to redo my blog completely, and maybe even scrapping using Xanga as a platform and do something different. Need a bit more planning, but I should get started on it soon cause I want it finished by September. I need a vacation... a long vacation. Sake anyone?
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(Journal entry: April 5, 2009)
I wrote a bunch of heavy stuff this previous week, but I'll save you the agony. Did quite a few things since I've last updated, as well met up with a friend that I forgot to mention during the last entry.
Had dinner with her with my sister, just chilled and chatted about how old we are getting... lol.
Celebrated my dad's birthday with some family friends and relatives, I don't think we'll be going back to Bel-Air for awhile. Helen's sisters came for a holiday in HK this Thursday, and we went to LKF on Saturday to kick it and relax a bit - had tons of fun, being an alcoholic and all.
Woke up today at nine and played tennis from eleven till one, I felt like I was going to pass out when I came home around two. It was surprisingly hot and sunny today, so I guess I was a bit of dehydrated to start out with since I was drinking last night as well. Literally passed out from two to six, and after dinner my head felt like a firecracker about to explode. It's a little better after an Advil now, so I better go sleep while I still can.
I could use a vacation... damn, where's a travel buddy when you need one >.>
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(A side story: Voice of the Planet)
Before I get started on my side entry, time to go over what happened the past few weeks.
Three weeks ago -
 
The water was frigging cold - and yes I still couldn't ride the wave board.
And this Saturday as I finished my sushi and sake, went over to the bookstore and started reading - I got a call that made me both annoyed and speechless. Seems like I made a new friend, and my life just got more interesting. (I was annoyed by my dad, who without any of our consent - bought the furball without consulting me. Nevertheless, I'm thankful for a lot of things, and perhaps it's meant to be.)
Now the fun stuff is out of the way, I have a bit of a serious post coming up. Don't attempt to read it if you are depressed lately.
Voice of the Planet
Human beings, as a sentient species, are riddled with destructive traits that are not as apparent in other species. Perhaps it is our self-awareness that gave rise to such ugly emotions, but nevertheless as the only species on this planet with the gift of knowledge, it is a sad and sorry excuse for the behavior we have displayed since our race came into conception.
Most of us live our everyday lives unaware of our surroundings, and seek refuge in our homes during the night without being aware or thankful of the planet that we have thrived upon for over several millennium. Maybe it was chance that we have successfully evolved on a planet which accommodated us with such grace, providing us with its abundant resources and an unwavering shelter in the midst of space. We have evolved to the point where people seldom realize that we are only ONE species that is sharing the planet with millions of others. People talk of "respect" and "rights" constantly on international forums, that humans as a race are playing God by venturing into the territory of genetic engineering - but haven't we been doing that already the moment we claimed this planet as our own?
It is depressing to hear the voice of the planet go unheard by so many. It is at times like these I wonder if we are merely a failed experiment in the laboratory of a creator. My words may sound harsh, but I dread to imagine the path of destruction that awaits our future generations. At times like these, I sincerely wished God had granted me a little more power to right what is wrong, and to do what everyone else should be doing.
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(A side story: The Meaning of One) Well, first of all - Happy Valentine's to all the couples out there. I guess my side story is somewhat aspired by this, but then, I don't think it would have made a big difference since I wanted to write something.  
I think these roses are absolutely stunning. Maybe next year I will buy some for myself. Recently, I was afflicted with a case of holiday blues. Maybe its due to my traveling during the past few months, then again, it could be due to me thinking about trivial things that doesn't really matter. I do know one of the causes for my condition: seeing my friends again has led me to the door that was kept shut in my heart. After our trip to Macau and Taiwan, it left me thinking of how alone we really are on this minuscule planet. The things we can do to influence the course of this world are really minor. Despite this feeling, I think it is important to retain one's will and hope for the future. While it is true that we can meekly exert our influence within our social circle, one will never learn of the effects that a butterfly leaves in its wake. (I have been reading The Tipping Point; its a splendid book, about how events tip over under certain conditions) I was lost through most of my life about my ambition, or future. It seemed like I never found it, even to this date. I was too hung up on things that shouldn't matter and what I was already blessed with, that I couldn't see the picture outside the frame I had painted for myself. In the end, it blundered me and limited my scope on the world. One should have pride, but nevertheless being too proud is one of my downfalls. My father often said this to me as well, but I guess he never knew how to express himself. I think I finally understood the concept, and the benefits behind it. Once you take a step backwards, there is so much more you can see and learn. As for living by myself, I think I have finally come to terms with my other self. For too long have I been waiting for a phone that never rings, a knock that never comes, or a door that never opens. To be honest, I think I am a little disappointed, but for now, I will live in my own time and stop waiting for that knock. For now, and from now, I will walk that path that is mine.
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(Journal entry: February 8, 2009) Happy Chinese New Years to everyone~! My neck has made a rather speedy recovery after a week of physiotherapy, which I am rather grateful for. My therapist said that's a good sign, proof that I'm still young ::insert laugh here::. Anyways, been fixing up my anime archives, now they are all neatly sorted in alphabetical order by drives. Cleaned up 2/3 of my hard drives, apparently one of them ran into an "write zero" error when I tried to do a full wipe on it, maybe it's going to die on me soon. Had to spend three days backing up all the stuff and moving them back into place, and installed a new DVDRW while I was at it since one of my burners died awhile ago, and the second one is making weird noises - maybe I ought to get that replaced as well. I did also put in a new Alpine player in my car, since the CD changer in my original has been broken from awhile ago; the sound is awesome, I am so loving it. Watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button", I thought it was a good movie - and did some more leisure reading. I've almost caught up on all the books I bought, aside from a few that I haven't finished. Got a bit of red pockets from CNY, which are quickly dissipating from my wallet. At times, I wonder if there's a black hole near my wallet that I can't seem to spot. I wanted to write earlier in the week about something, but now it's slipped my mind. Guess I'll write more later if I feel like it...
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